Forbidden love

Dear Sir, I am writing this letter to share a thought with you, well it’s more like a confession………sigh………… sir, I have tried many times to tell you but the words……well the words never came out the right way. I know right now you are far away and I am writing this letter anonymously just to say……………..

Well, to say………………well what I wanna say is………………ughhhhhhhhhh, it’s happening again. It’s funny huh, you’re so far away and I still can’t say what I want to. Well I…I ….I….. Well you see…………sigh…… I know you must be laughing at me.

Ok here goes……..well news of your marriage has already reached us here and to tell you this I know I am being unfair but I never got the chance to say before you went away. I heard your wife is a true beauty and you must be so happy but…………well…….. I have to say what’s in my heart cause it’s tearing me apart.

Believe me, I do not wanna break up a happy home but…………….well from the first day I met you, I have loved you. I love your smile, your charm and the feel of your arms….. I love your wit and sense of pride and I have always dreamt of being your bride but………………..well you know.

Money and power kept us apart, oh but never in my heart. I never uttered a word from my heart for fear that it may cost you your life for I knew I could never be your wife. It hurts to know that you will be lying with another while I sit here and grieve over something I never had but always wanted. Sir, I………………….oh no…………….

It’s time I go sir, so I am gonna say what I wanna, I should have said this before you left……………..Sir, I……….. I……. I love you. I would die for you and that I will………..sir, someone is coming so I really must go. Please be happy for us both for as I tie this rope, your face is the last I see…………sir I will forever love thee.

I'm sorry my love

I am sorry for words unspoken

and promises broken.

I am sorry for hurting you

and making you feel blue.

I am sorry for crazy things said

I must have been out my head.

I am sorry for not loving you

the way you deserve to be loved.

I am sorry for stupid jokes

and heartless comments.

I am sorry most of all

for not loving you for all that you are and what you're not.

I realized just moments ago

why I love you so.

You make me happy on dark days,

you always chase the clouds away.

you make me smile and laugh

at the smallest things.

you make me hope again

and you opened my heart to love.

you have accepted me for what i am and am not

you have never tried to change me

and all the little things i do

you think it sexy

I love you

and i am sorry for hurting you

My painful irrationality

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my painful irrationality

by Shaunee Thompson on Wednesday, 1 June 2011 at 16:03

I can’t control this monster inside called pride,

It’s taking over

I've tried and tried.

All this rage, Exploding insanity, Pain and love, All just irrationality.

I feel so crazy,

I'm hurting............... But no one can see.

Thoughts race in my mind, Tears flow with a vengeance,

Memories flow together, Nothing makes sense.

I act out, Forgetting what is real

I Let anger take over, Just so I can feel....feel something, anything

I know it’s wrong but I Can’t give a care, it Just needs to be ok, But it isn’t there.

I beg to be normal, I Hate myself,

Lies become truth, Above all else.

Every choice I make, Never quite right,

Actions bring consequences, Stupidity brings a fight

Well of tears

Deep inside I have a cut that has wounded my soul

I don’t know how I will survive this deep cut.

It caused no harm you said but right now I would rather be dead.

Deep inside I have a tear welling up, forming a dam full of tears

Tears that represent my sadness and pain

My heart screams for help!

Calling for someone, anyone, to save my soul

You can't see my pain because I hide it so very deep

And only show it to you in the form of my anger

Deep inside there is a pain caused by the cut you gave me deep inside my soul

It hurts so bad and so deep

Like rain

Being me is a shame,

I keep talking yet my words are lame,

everything is getting complicated,

and I'm getting frustrated,

I'm wondering why this is happening to me,

it's getting worse and that's what i feel,

it's stupid and everyone says this is real .

Falling Tears...

All alone...

No one's near...

No one hears my falling tears..

I Cry

Today i cry within my heart

my own sadness tore me apart

I need to know from where it came. Sadness falling down like rain,

if my desire can't be met then sadness be the cause of my death.

Today i cry within my soul

my body barely keeps control

I find myself with no regret if i were in the grasp of death.

If darkness were to compass me, will sadness set my spirit free?

If I must live this life of pain

I wish i never breath again

Failure

What do you do when you've given something your all,
yet you still fail in the end,
and it seems a normal trend.

It is so easy to give up,
to throw your hands up and say "I'M DONE,
SOMEONE ELSE HAS WON AND I REFUSE TO TRY AGAIN"!

It is so easy to turn the other way and run away,
and blame someone else for your failure, rather that accept the blame,
just because you feel the shame.

Life is a game,
someone has to win and someone has to lose,
there will be shame,
there will be defeats and retreats,
THERE WILL BE FAILURES.

But don't accept failure sitting down,
grad it by the horns,
and use it as a chance for change,
not as an opportunity to run away,
or to feel self pity and shame.

Most of all,
do not view failure as a measure of your worth,
but as a chance for a new beginning,
and a happier ending.

I wish

I wish for greener trees,
I wish for cleaner seas,
Most of all, I wish for world peace.

I wish for patience,
I wish for gratefulness and gracefulness,
I wish for knowledge,
and moreover, courage.

I wish for the power to forgive and forget,
I wish to live without regret,
I wish never to have to fret,
Most of all, I wish to be able to accept death.

I wish never to hate,
nor to discriminate,
I wish to never feel lust,
I wish I could trust.

Most of all, I wish for love,
I wish to love unconditionally,
and to be loved unconditionally.

I sit here wishing,
when i realized I should be praying,
Not just saying these words,
But doing something to make these wishes come true,
I will PRAY.